Amanda van Hesteren

Unpolished and intimate documentary about four male models on the brink of adulthood. On retreat in Thailand, they are supposed to work on their mind and body. In reality, they hang out in a luxury villa, chase girls and ride scooters in the nude. But their shenanigans cannot conceal the emptiness of their lives.

An intimate, atmospheric documentary about Blue, a 23-year-old Black queer woman, poet, and artist. Having fled a volatile past in London, she crafts a radically free, alternative existence among the rooftop landscapes and underground scenes of Marseille, France. On the surface, Blue’s life is defined by a rebellious, unapologetic energy, marked by psychedelic drug experimentation and defiance. However, director Amanda van Hesteren peels back this layer of carefree queer liberation through raw, close-up conversations to explore intergenerational trauma. Blue's fluid lifestyle is a coping mechanism for deep-seated wounds, including an absent father and growing up with a homeless, HIV-positive mother. Ultimately, the film captures a deeply personal queer coming-of-age journey, navigating the tension between fluid freedom in marginal spaces and a universal search for self-acceptance, healing, and home.

Unpolished and intimate documentary about four male models on the brink of adulthood. On retreat in Thailand, they are supposed to work on their mind and body. In reality, they hang out in a luxury villa, chase girls and ride scooters in the nude. But their shenanigans cannot conceal the emptiness of their lives.

Unpolished and intimate documentary about four male models on the brink of adulthood. On retreat in Thailand, they are supposed to work on their mind and body. In reality, they hang out in a luxury villa, chase girls and ride scooters in the nude. But their shenanigans cannot conceal the emptiness of their lives.

An intimate, atmospheric documentary about Blue, a 23-year-old Black queer woman, poet, and artist. Having fled a volatile past in London, she crafts a radically free, alternative existence among the rooftop landscapes and underground scenes of Marseille, France. On the surface, Blue’s life is defined by a rebellious, unapologetic energy, marked by psychedelic drug experimentation and defiance. However, director Amanda van Hesteren peels back this layer of carefree queer liberation through raw, close-up conversations to explore intergenerational trauma. Blue's fluid lifestyle is a coping mechanism for deep-seated wounds, including an absent father and growing up with a homeless, HIV-positive mother. Ultimately, the film captures a deeply personal queer coming-of-age journey, navigating the tension between fluid freedom in marginal spaces and a universal search for self-acceptance, healing, and home.