Lars Sundqvist

Sara Lidman writes about the longing for children and a man. As a red thread in her diaries and letters, there is doubt about being loved for who she is. She falls in love often. Especially in the love of her life - South Africa. He is black and she is allowed to pay a high prize for her love under the apartheid regime's rags, which closes around her until she finally has to leave South Africa.

Eighteen-year-old Vika, in order to recover from a disease that is considered demonic possession in her village, plans to escape and stay in the neighboring Norway. Her way is much more scary than finding a local groom or finding a job.